The RETURN of the N.E.RD

Eye See I SAID!

If Christmas was Two weeks away this is what I would want from All of YOU!! Seriously When Eye See something I like...I will inform you until then...Enjoy

1 & one &1 is THREE

I remember sitting on the yard and watching the KAPPA's step and would always seem to be sucked in at one particular part in the step that I believes goes something like this "1 and 1 and 1 is 3, you better watch your girl cause she watching me YO-YO-YO-YO" I think I initially like it because of the cocky under tone that it carries, but later realized that it was similar to a rule that I would learned to govern my Life by. With every practical use that I can find for this rule trust me I make it a stern set... The rule is simply this 1mind 1heart 1soul meaning that because you only have one of each they wasn't meant to be shared( I mean you only have 1 for a reason right?) Just think about it, a lot of people are suffering from broken hearts and are in dire need for a peace of mind and lets not mention all the soul searching people claim they have to do to obtain thus said peace of mind!!

Just be honest I feel that if everyone knew how to go about life in a stingy way with things that seem to be soo important to themselves once they are heart and or lost I.E (love, hearts, minds, souls, feelings) so on and so forth people would be a emotional stronger race of people and we wouldn't have so many "bitter and/or heart broken people walking around talking about they will never fall in love again or that there never going to open up there hearts and all that hoop-la. I'm not saying that you not going to catch feelings or that one day your not going to fall in love because realistically you will maybe more then once, what I am saying is that IF you had a small budget to get a outfit for a party you wouldn't go splurge on a shirt know that you still need pants, shoes, and whatever accessories that you use. You would make sure that you budget and penny pinch until you have what in your mind you believe to be the PERfect outfit for the occasion RIGHT?

Its the same thought process with having only 1HEART 1MIND and 1SOUL its like having a budget in which its almost impossible to get all the shopping done, but if done right in the end you will have the "PERFECT OUTFIT" for any occasion that you want to attend! 9 times out of 10 in life the things we depend on other people for, in all actuality we can do it for ourselves why let someone else reap the fruits of you labor..In the end y'all probably want 2 different things anyway...

DAmn ME and MY J's Always Roc a mean "23"

"i just came out of the muthafuckin old school got my mac notebook with the pro tools yall bitches aint ready for DASH DIESEL --- bad WOOF WOOF fire then a frisby....I must give it to Nicki thats one of the best lines she has ever spitted...and glad its one the lines that you can actually understand! My girlfriend(mac book pro) is truely the only girl i need in this LIFE!!

WOW, so its finally here!!! Im actually 23... Hmm most of you are like "damn you are young" while others are like "damn you are old" either way 23 is a big deal for me. Remember when you was in kindergarden and the teacher would ask your favorite number..well mines was always 23.. yea yea yea its sounds cliche but it has nothing to do with jordan at all it goes back to the days when your learning how to count and "mommy" or "daddy" would start off with one, well i would finish with two and three-then look up like finish it bitch..just kidding..**side eye** I had hopes and dreams for this age there was soo much i wanted to be and have accomplish, most ive done but still have along way to go!! The Number 23 is widely know to be a great number so hopefully this would be a great year for me I have no complaints thus far so HAPPY 23DAY to me

Valentine's Day Epiphany

"VALENTINE'S DAY" The day in time in which someone said that on this day (Feb 14) everyone will choose one person in which they show love, gratitude, or some gesture of caring deeming them their "valentine">FUCKING INSANE RIGHT!! LOL<< Two weeks after it came out a bitter ME finally went to see this movie entitled Valentine Day, no this isn't a movie review but something in that movie struck a cord and I must admit it had me thinking through out the movie. Ashton Kutcher's character at one point asks his friend how did him and his wife get it right the first time (in reference to marriage) and his response was "that's simple I married my best friend"

To some this statement might just seem cliche but to me it kinda made since. We all have best friends in which we have similar qualities, likes, dislikes and no matter what it seems like that we can always look past our "BFF's flaws or no matter how many times we fall out we seem to always have a bond that seems unbreakable, a bond in which we are tying to create with a "soul-mate right?

Now in my case I seem to have a best friend for every mood swing that I have depending on what day it is. I have someone to call on if I need relationship advice, one for money, another for family problems, this one for education advice, and my favorite "BFF" is the one I go partying with. So in a case like mines where there isn't just one person with that bond that's so strong that no matter what title you but on the relationship it is destined to last...how do we get that luxury of getting a successful relationship the first time around? For example when it comes to this particular best friend I know that he is going to try to talk to everyone that Ive previously talked to, and then BFF number 2 is straight so i always feel like we are in two different places in our life but I wouldn't trade that friendship for nothing in the world!

My question is how do you overcome the same possible mistakes that a "soul-mate and a "best friend" may commit so that regardless of the title-the relationship itself would last, and secondly how do you determine(if you had to) which BFF had the strongest possibility or charecteristics in being the "got it right the first time around" candidate for a happy or successful relationship?

I'm no spoke person for Valentine Day honestly to me it shouldn't even be around but I did get some good food for thought from watching the movie and I hope you guys enjoy it as much as i did..let me know what you think!

Memory Lane ~VS~ Stolen Moments

Wow so It's been a minute since Ive made a post so I promise that i will try to keep this thing as up to date as i can. Let me first explain the different between memory lane and a stolen moment. Memory lane is self explanatory its that song or scent that reminds you of the past where as a stolen moment is something that feels soooo good at that given moment but your not sure if its going to be around long. Now read these two scenarios and tell me which one would you rather have at the end of the day.


MEMORY LANE: We dated for a couple of years, I still remember the first time we kiss I still laugh at the awkwardness that I felt after you was gone. In the beginning i felt like a kid in a candy store, always on edge but longing for more. As we got serious we begin to move as one, what i did you did and vise verse i swear its like we almost became the same person. Time passed and we got into the groove of things and finally grew into our individual lives, rather it was school, work, or even play. Things heated up a little our fights went from arguments about spending the night to fights about blowing rent money or either of us coming home late. We made huge sacrifices for one another including moving into the same house and even getting joint accounts, just for everything to spiral down hill. We had memorable moments and eventually moved apart-speaking here and there, different scents in the air sent ones mind on a race through memory lane. Every picture, movie, or fight we every had replay in ones mind only to leave a smile or frown on ones face.

~VS~

STOLEN MOMENT: We met through a friend actually on the way to the club, Ive seen you around before and to my surprise you claim that you have notice me as well. We learn that we have alot in common and we set up a date that was cool for the both of us. I came to your house you drove to the date and i must say that it was one of the best that Ive had in a long time. Days go by and we keep in touch a text here, special picture mail there(lol), a lil convo there but nothing really serious. We go out again and both acknowledge that there are feelings there and as soon as we both say that... POOF its as if we never met. The little time that was spent feels like a life time for someone else but it would never amount to a long term relationship,,,


At the end of the day, do you choose the memory that holds everything that you stand for in a relationship with one person, or do you settle for the blast with multiple stolen moments that you constictly have to repeat because the thrill only last for so long....

**FRIENDS, HOW MANY OF US HAVE THEM**

When it come to friendships of any nature, any one that's truly my friend knows how u feel about my small group of friends. Some of my favorite quotes on friendships goes as followed:

“A friend is someone who understands your past, believes in your future, and accepts you just the way you are.”-unknown

“Truly great friends are hard to find, difficult to leave, and impossible to forget.”-unknown

“True friends stab you in the front.”-Oscar Wilde

"True friends are like diamonds – bright, beautiful, valuable, and always in style." — Nicole Richie

My list of quotes can go on for days, but that's not the point of this post. Part of growing up is know that friends come and go, and that real friends will be there to the end right? Growing up I believe that I did a good job at picking friends because most of thee so called "Best Friends" are still around and our bonds are stronger then ever. On the other hand the two- almost three years that I've lived in Atlanta Ive came across great candidates for potentially good friends but somewhere along the line them seem to fall short! Question- is there truly an invisible code of conduct for friends? In my experiences if that book of conduct is invisible how do we make it visible so that the people with twisted interpretations of friendships can read it and understand what a "Real friend" is? OK people i don't want this to be a venting post some can i get some feed back, i have a couple of questions for you guys.

1. When looking for friends what do you look for in a person?
2.How long after meeting someone do u give then the BFF status?
3. How many times do you forgive a "friend" after they mess up?
4. Whats the numerical limit on 'BFF's"?

The Wait is OVer

** A conversation between friends**

Me and a couple of my friends was sitting around talking about love and life and the different out looks on how we felt about it, i think it was a good convo so i decided to blog part of it I Hope you enjoy!!!!!

So the question was: If love is a word that comes & goes why can't the pain leave with it?



Jstew: If the pain that loves sometimes brings leaves when the love is no longer visible... Then there would be no point of loving. If the pain suddenly disappeared when your significant others love did. Then there would be no lesson. Furthermore, if it disappears so swiftly I’m willing to bet that it wasn't love at all. Sorry got to keep it real! But let me stay on track. For with every chance you take on love there is a possible breakup that teaches you something. Granted at the time this doesn't occur to you because you’re so blind sighted by the pain that has engulfed you. Still it teaches you what u did right and what u need to work on. This is also when “me time” is a must. “Me Time” gives you that mental freedom (as well as physical) to rebuild what was broken. And by rebuild do not I do not mean build a fence around your heart. Period… no need to elaborate. After, you’ve had your space to reevaluate things, feel free to give it another go, remember the lesson but don’t dwell on the pain. Because if there were no pain life would no longer teach us anything

Dash Diesel: I Love and I agree with what you said, but i ask you this.......If you can truly erase the pain that love leaves behind without erasing the feeling of love or the memories of the relationship being that its the only vessel left to dwell on (and I truly believe that this is where you recap on the lesson to be learned) does that mean it wasn't love?

L.J: life it's self is the biggest lesson of the day and love is only 1/8 of every one's problems u must first love yo-self and date a lot of people to understand that other sex. Because people today get there heart broken simply because they don't have anyone or any notes on how boys/girls act and they fall in love w sex, objects, that... Read More person's style or just looks. You must prepare yourself for the big let down by understanding yourself n the other sex before u ever jump str8 into love or u just like my nigga here will be having a conversation like this saying how love is not for you

this has been real talk from the 2nd
Lveezie F
P.S. what up young n Diesel

Dash Diesel: THE SIMPLIFIED VERSION OF THE QUESTION IS

IF U CAN TRULY ERASE THE PAIN THAT LOVE LEAVES BEHIND WITHOUT ERASING THE FEELING OF LOVE ITS SELF OR WHAT IT AS TAUGHT U

DOES THAT MEAN THAT IT WASN'T TRU LOVE?...

Jstew: No. Because each case is different and so is each person's reaction..I don't find that to mean that it wasn't true love. Personally, when I've attempted to erase him from my past it NEVER seemed to work because my heart knew what was really good...ya feel me?

Dash Diesel: I feel ya, but in this case I'm not saying be blind to the fact that the person in question is still around and maybe a big part of our lives, or even try to erase them!! I'm just thinking that if u can be around that person with no memory of the pain that the break up caused but still get the teachings that u need from it the world of dating would be so much better and "Ice Box" wouldn't have been such a smash it....lol

That's just a sample of how deep the convo went, but let me know your feelings on the matter!!

What do you do?

SO WHAT DO U DO WHEN THE ONE U LOVE DOESN’T WANT YOU…?

DO U SIT AROUND AND LISTEN TO THE SWEET WORDS OF COMFORT AND THE WORDS THAT MENDS THE HEART FOR A COUPLE OF DAYS ONLY FOR THEIR ACTIONS TO RETURN TO THE WAY IT WAS BEFORE THE BREAK UP, OR DO U BE THE STRONG INDEPENPENT PERSON THAT EVERYONE KNOWS YOU TO BE BUT U FAIL TO SEE BECAUSE OF THE DECEITFUL BLINDS OF LOVE THAT ONLY ALLOW U TO SEE WHAT U WANT TO SEE AND FEEL HOW U WANT TO FEEL REGARDLESS OF THE SITUATION…..?

HOW SHOULD YOU FEEL WHEN ONE DAY A PERSON CALLS TO TELL YOU HOW MUCH THE LOVE YOU AND NEED YOU AND THEN THE NEXT DAY JUST BE REAL NONCHALANT ABOUT THE SITUATION LIKE THEY WASN’T THE ONE LEADING YOU ON WITH ALL THE WORDS THAT YOU DREAM ABOUT HEARING.

LOVE SHOULDN’T BE SOMETHING THAT U DO FOR THE MOMENT OR BECAUSE YOU THINK THAT’S WHAT THE OTHER PERSON WANT U SHOULD LOVE BECAUSE U WANT TO AND ONLY FOR THAT REASON…

I USE TO THINK THAT LOVE WAS JUST AN INSANE IDEA OF A FEELING THAT SPEADED BY SPOKEN WORD AND THEN BECAME AN EXPECTATION THAT EVERYONE WANTED BUT WHEN A FAILED ATTEMP AT LOVE ACCURS ITS NOT AN IDEA ANYMORE BUT A FEELING THAT NO ONE WANTS TO ENDURE BECAUSE OF THE PAIN THAT COMES FROM THE FACT THAT U CANT CONTROL WHO U FALL FOR AND WHY THE FALL OUT OF LOVE….

SO WHAT DO U DO WHEN THE ONE U LOVE DOESN’T WANT YOU…?DO U WAIT AROUND TO SEE IF MAYBE ONE DAY THEY WILL WAKE UP AND REALIZE THAT U JUST MAY BE THE BEST THING THAT AS HAPPEN TO THEM AND THAT THEY CANT LIVE WITH OUT U OR, IS IT THE OTHER WAY AROUND AND ITS U THAT CANT LIVE WITH OUT THEM AND U FEEL AS IF THEY WERE THE BEST THING THAT HAPPEN TO U AND U NEED THIS PERSON TO ACT AS A BACK BONE TO HELP GET THROUGH THIS TEDIOUS PROCESS WE CALL LIFE!!!!

HONESTLY WHY DO WE FALL FOR OTHER HUMANS WHEN WE KNOW THAT MOST LIKELY WE WONT SPEND THE REST OF OUR LIVES WITH THIS PERSON BECAUSE FOREVER IS A LONG TIME AND I DON’T THINK THAT AT 19 A PERSON IS READY FOR FOREVER…OR

WHY SHOULD WE LET THE FEAR OF LOSING SOMETHING THAT WHOLE HEARTEDLY WE NEVER REALLY HAD AND THAT JUST FOR A SPLIT SECOND WAS THE BEST FEELING U HAVE EVER EXPERIENCE IN UR LIFE.

A LOT OF QUESTIONS ABOUT LOVE GOES UNANSWERED BECAUSE PERSONALLY I THINK THAT LOVE WASN’T MEANT TO BE UNDERSTOOD JUST A LIFE LESSON DESIGN TO MAKE A STRONGER RACE OF EMOTIONALLY AWARE PEOPLE.

SO WHAT DO U DO WHEN THE ONE U LOVE DOESN’T WANT YOU…?

YOU LEARN YOU LIVE YOU GROW YOU NEVER REGRET AND U KNOW THAT IN THE END U WILL BE A STRONGER PERSON AND MAYBE ONE DAY THAT INSANE IDEA OF A FEELING SPREADED BY SPOKEN WORD WILL BE YOURS TO HOLD CHERISH AND GROW OLD WITH BUT UN TIL THEN…LOVE HURT AND GET OVER IT BUT DON’T LET IT BREAK U ITS ONLY AN IDEA AFTER ALL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

~Dash Diesel~